"untitled"

it's been less than a week since my last post, so this is unusual of me. But I'm just going to be honest for a moment. I'm feeling awful. It just seems like this is a horrible week. It's Monday. I don't even want to finish this week out. Meaning, I'm ready for Friday. I don't want to do whatever I have to do this week. This mostly has to do with the load of school work I have, but still, I don't want to do this. I don't want to be here right now. I'm in my last year of college. I'm not content with the work I have to do. I don't want to follow anything regarding my degree. I'm just so ready to be done. I'm looking forward to the future, but it seems like the process of getting there will be slow, tedious and overly-frustrating. I'm not looking forward to that.

Last night we were rehearsing our songs from the project we're working on, and I felt so confident and happy the entire time we were working on stuff. I found what I want to do. It's so frustrating to know that I have to stick out this part of my life before moving on. Sometimes I wonder if I should regret my decisions that led me here. Then again, those same decisions could be what brought me here, musically. I never thought I would even be this far along with my music. It's absolutely a miracle.

I don't know what I'm saying. I guess I would covet any prayers that you could throw up on my behalf. Thanks to all you who run over here to the blog. Love you all.